Growing Pains

Living is learning, right?  And along with that learning comes . . . growing pains.

Retired from years as a professional educator this fall, I’ve had to learn how to “be in the world” without the drive, direction, and focus of professional responsibilities.  While this has been a dream come true, having time to write full time, it has by no means been easy. Who’d a thunk it? All the old fears and self-doubt return–full force. Change is hard.

But thanks to my writing partner Laura Gabel-Hartman, in Boston, I’ve gotten into a writing groove, and I’ve almost finished my latest novel, Alas Hestia. At the same time I’m searching for an agent for The Family. Easy?  No way! Challenging–you bet. But I’m in it for the long haul.

AND I’ve had to learn how to face “the business of writing”–that aspect I never had time for before, if I was going to write at all. Laura helped me create a spreadsheet for my short stories that have never been published (I’ve written a LOT of short stories) and encouraged me to “get the work out.” I’m facing that huge need–since I’ve focussed on the need to send out work, I’ve had a story taken by Crack the Spine and two poems selected for Artemis.

AND that elusive need, a web page . . . if you’re reading this, you know I’ve finally faced that, too. Jane Goette connected me with her dear friend Heidi Dickens, and  voila–I’m learning to create and maintain a web page and a new author Facebook page. Heidi is patient and wise and willing to put up with my questions, confusions, and slow progress.

None of this has been easy for me, but growing pains are manageable with the help of dear friends and my supportive artist husband, John. I am certain that living is learning, and I’m grateful to have this time of my life to dedicate myself to writing. I’m confident that this opportunity to write full time is well worth any and all aches and agonies that come with it.

3 thoughts on “Growing Pains

  1. John recommened zen and art of motorcycle maintenance during my days at tncs and we read catcher in the rye and a seperate peace in your class all three of those novels teach via the words on the page, so as you are retired now you get to teach everyone in the world via your words on the page, you may not have papers to grade and students asking questions, however as you write perhaps all of those days teaching could have been preparing you for where you are now a fulltime writer, those minds and voices you helped to shape for the future may now be the readers of your words, no doubt your peers will be reading as well, perhaps a reassuring thought is to know in life we allways may be looking and moving forward while never loosing sight of where we have been. Wrting seems to be one of few art forms that allows both.

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    • Thank you so much, Scott. I think of you often–your doodling in class, which was no prob for me. Your imagination. We have one of your paintings in our home. Did you do that? And I have the pig drawing in my office. Your thoughts matter. And, yes, we carry our experiences into the studio, whether we’re writing or drawing, and they influence us with or without our awareness. Great to hear from you. Thanks for commenting.


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